Some days I think, how can I really move on with my life and pretend like everything is fine when our lives will truly never be the same?
I will always be missing a piece of my heart.
And yet this week, almost 3 months after baby Alethia passed away, I had three different people approach me at work, expressing their condolences and just encouraging me and showing that they care.
God knew that I needed those reminders that she hasn't been forgotten.
I have found that it means so much to me to hear people talk about baby Alethia Joy and call her by name, to acknowledge that she was a real person, and has been and always will be a significant part of our lives.
Baby Alethia Joy,
I will never forget how it felt to hold you in my arms, to kiss your soft face and caress your smooth skin.
I will never forget how badly I wanted just to hear even one little cry come out of your mouth, and yet there was silence.
I will never forget the first time I saw you. After carrying you for 9 months, feeling you move and grow inside of me, and imagining each day what you might look like, it was incredible to finally see you, our beautiful precious baby daughter, your daddy's and my own flesh and blood.
I will never forget how it felt to watch your daddy cuddle you and just gaze at you with such a mixture of tenderness and sorrow in his eyes. He loved you so much.
I will never forget the faithfulness of God as He wraps His arms around us and comforts us in our sorrows.
I hope and pray with all my heart that the Lord will bless us with more children...but you will always be the big sister. You will always be our firstborn daughter.
You truly were the "little joy" of our lives.
I will always love you and miss you with the deepest part of my heart.
Love,
Your Mommy
8 comments:
sweet friend. thank you for sharing your heart with us. your words are beautiful. still praying in japan...
Tony and Charity--"Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow...Great is His faithfulness." We continue to pray for you two. I do understand your heart, in a different sort of way. Just as you wonder if anyone remembers your pain, your sorrow, your heartache...because life does go on for everyone else...someone comes along to remind you that he/she does still care, and God again sends a "hug." "...His compassions are new every morning...Great is His faithfulness." Hugs to both of you...
Thank you for sharing your heart...
I pray that God will continue to send encouragement to you...especially on those days when the world seems to go on as if your heart wasn't broken.
Praying for you friend!
Charity, I'm so sorry that you two have had to endure such a horrible trial. I know none of us understands why this happened, but I do know that God is faithful and He will carry you and Tony through this day by day. Please know we are still praying for strength for you guys. We love you
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on your blog - it is really encouraging to read! I blogged about your story, you can read it at http://heymckay.blogspot.com
We love you!
Beautiful Charity. Thank you for sharing this poem with us, it is heart wrenching and beautiful all at the same time. Alethia will always be a huge part of your family. Love you and praying for you.
Oh Charity, we have not forgotten. I wish you didn't have to travel this pain-filled road, but I so appreciate your heart and attitude on the journey. Much love and prayers to you and Tony.
~Kecia
Charity, that was so beautiful. I don't have any words, I'm just praying for your family and your heart to be encouraged and lifted up. Thank you for sharing your heart.... my heart aches for you reading your words to your daughter. Much love to you...
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