2 months

Baby Alethia Joy would have been 2 months old today.


I often wonder what it must be like, what she must be experiencing, in the awesome presence of Jesus Christ our Savior.
This week in my 1st grade class, our Bible lesson was about Heaven. As my students and I discussed what the Bible says about Heaven, it was just so reassuring and hopeful to think that there is no death, sadness, no tears, no sickness, no fear, no pain there...far greater than anything we can ever imagine.

Some days are tough, some moments are tough, and different random things bring on the emotions...
--Like seeing other babies Alethia's age
--Getting things in the mail addressed to "the parents of Alethia Joy" saying "Congratulations on your new arrival"
--Hearing new parents talk about how tired they are and how their babies cry so much, when I would give anything just to have a baby to keep me up all night... I wouldn't care.
--Reading about all the little milestones that babies experience at this age
--Thinking about how different we anticipated life to be right now--this last week would have been my first week back at school after my maternity leave. I would've been coming to school every morning with baby Alli (who would've stayed in our school's nursery) and leaving with her every afternoon.



Looking back on all that has happened in the last 2 months, it seems in a way like it's been soo much longer than 2 months.. more like a year.
A few people have told me that this experience in a privilege.. the fact that God chose us to walk this road. They have said that He found us faithful and worthy to suffer for Him in this way.
It's often hard to understand how something so difficult as this could be considered a privilege.
I don't feel faithful. I don't feel worthy. But God is teaching us little by little, day by day, that He sees the bigger picture. Our biggest hope and prayer is that somehow, some way, even just one soul would come to know Jesus Christ through the short life of Alethia Joy Myers.
We hurt, we grieve, but we know that God can and will use this for His own glory.

This necklace is Alethia's name in Greek, meaning "truth," a gift from Tony's mom.
The little lamb's New Testament was a precious gift from one of my aunts.