The Lord gave me such perfect peace as I walked into that ultrasound room. I was so nervous and scared at the beginning but was overwhelmed with His promise that He will never leave or forsake me. Once we got started and I saw that baby's heartbeat was strong and things were going well, my nervousness subsided and I was just overwhelmed with peace, joy and emotion as I watched the ultrasound technician point out many of our precious little one's body parts. The amazing miracle of God's creation of the little life inside me never ceases to fill me with amazement.
When the ultrasound technician typed "It's a Girl" onto the screen, I felt tears come to my eyes. Tony and I were both kinda thinking that it was a boy, so we were pleasantly surprised and so incredibly happy [as I know we would have been with a boy as well]. It's bittersweet thinking about Alethia Joy's little sister wearing many of the clothes and using the blankets, bedding, even the diapers, etc. that were purchased and intended for her originally, but I know that each time I use these items, I will be reminded of the sweet memories we do have of Alethia Joy and our longing to see her in Heaven someday will grow even deeper.
I was shopping for a baby shower gift [for a boy] a few days ago, but I found myself drawn to look at Target's section of little girls' clothes that I had tried so hard to avoid over the past year or so. It's a blessing to have a real reason to go back to that part of the store with hope in my heart rather than the pain that lingered there for so long.
I couldn't pass up purchasing this precious little "mommy's little love-bug" outfit that we hope and pray will be our baby girl's "going home from the hospital" apparel.
I am so thankful to be feeling well (other than not having a whole lot of energy) now at 21 weeks.
As fears and worries come and go
on a momentary, hourly, and daily basis...
I cling to this verse from Isaiah 41:10,
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
May you know His strength and feel the Lord upholding you today in whatever you may face.
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lovin that bump! If you need and thing "little girl" let me know I have a lot I can pass on.
...and a couple of other things. We should get together sometime since we live so close!
When I was PG I joined "pregnant Christian Sisters" on ivillage, it was a huge help I am now in the "Christian Sisters Playgroup" but I know you would have fun and make tons of friends - Christain girls - who are going through the joys and pains of pregnancy. Some have suffered losses as you have, some are great "been there felt that" types who have 8 little blessings. Anyway, pop in there and just lurk to see if you like it!
I can't wait to see that sweet girl!
In a way it was hard having a boy after losing a boy, but to get to say "This outfit was your big brother Nathan's" as I got him dressed made my son in heaven a little closer to his new little brother on earth. Now that we've moved beyond newborn clothing, I don't get to say that much any more, and I miss it. Congratulations on finding out Alethia's going to have a little sister. Praising God for the peace He continues to give you. :)
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