In 2 days I will be going back into that room, lying on that same bed, feeling that same cool gel on my stomach...the ultrasound room.
The same place where just 1 year, 2 months, 2 weeks, and 4 days ago, we stared at the silent screen and heard those incomprehensible words, "This is where you should see your baby's heartbeat. It looks like your baby died." That day was the beginning of an incredible journey of grief and pain that the Lord has carried us through each day and will continue to...
I am so full of mixed emotions right now.
The same place where just 1 year, 2 months, 2 weeks, and 4 days ago, we stared at the silent screen and heard those incomprehensible words, "This is where you should see your baby's heartbeat. It looks like your baby died." That day was the beginning of an incredible journey of grief and pain that the Lord has carried us through each day and will continue to...
I am so full of mixed emotions right now.
Excited to see our precious little baby and hopefully find out if it's a boy or a girl.
Anxious to hear whether or not everything's ok.
And fearful of the possibility that maybe everything's not.
Just wanting Thursday afternoon to be here...
I have found myself placing my hand on my abdomen constantly just checking to make sure I feel movement. I cherish every little kick that I feel and am so thankful that baby Myers appears to be active and healthy thus far.
God has brought this verse to my mind often, and I am so thankful for this promise:
"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." (Isaiah 26:3)
Lord, help my mind to be focused on You, and not on my own fears and worries.
Help me to trust You.
I desperately need Your perfect peace.
I have found myself placing my hand on my abdomen constantly just checking to make sure I feel movement. I cherish every little kick that I feel and am so thankful that baby Myers appears to be active and healthy thus far.
God has brought this verse to my mind often, and I am so thankful for this promise:
"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." (Isaiah 26:3)
Lord, help my mind to be focused on You, and not on my own fears and worries.
Help me to trust You.
I desperately need Your perfect peace.
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Dear Charity,
First, I must admit that I don't know whether to give my condolences or congratulations first...
Altehia Joy was a beautiful baby girl on earth as I know she is in heaven. I'm so sorry for the pain and heartache you've been through and that she's not here in your arms. I knew that babies died, but I never knew the depth of it until I lost my Baby Grady. I'm so thankful for God's promises and truth and the hope of heaven to come!
Congratulations on your current pregnancy! We are not too far apart...I turn 21 weeks today. My experience back in the room where I learned Grady no longer had a heartbeat was very hard and emotional. I was alone, and I definitely suggest someone be with you. I'm sure your hubby will be since you're finding out the gender of this baby. I was at a 6 weeks appt and wasn't planning on getting an ultrasound that day.
I will pray God's strength and comfort for you, not only for tomorrow's appt but for the duration of this pregnancy as well. Just as I expected, I'm finding pregnancy after loss to be filled with all sorts of CRAZY emotions and feelings. Not to mention dealing with other people and the things they say.
God bless you, Tony and the newest Baby Myers!
Tonya
Looking forward to hearing about healthy baby Myers :) hope baby will cooperate so you can see everything :)
Love you!
Thank you so much for sharing your heart...reading your blog prepares me for what I have in my future, Lord willing. I am only 2 months into this....and it hurts!! Please know that I will be praying for you today, and for the remainder of this week. I am looking forward to your update on Thursday. :) In Christ, Kiley
Praying you feel Jesus right there with you, that you feel His hand in yours, and His whispers of "I'm right here" the whole time.
I'll be thinking of you and praying for you on Thursday.
Praying for you! And so very excited for you too!
Thanks for being honest, Charity...I will definitely be praying for you as you prepare to re-visit the ultrasound room. I know the Lord has gret plans for this little one... :)
I will be praying that everything will go well with your little one on Thursday. I know how that goes with feeling anxious and continually giving it over to the Lord. Love you!
Yay! Can't wait to hear what you're having! :)
No words can convey our heart for you during this time of looking back and looking ahead, Charity. I only pray that the sweet peace of heaven, which passes all our human understanding will comfort you and sustain you during the painful reminders and the joy of the little ones yet to come. Love, love, love to you!
I've been watching your little ticker thing and wondering when the ultrasound post would be coming. So excited for you and I'll pray for you too.
I've been thinking about you today. Praying that your sweet baby is doing well and that you are too...
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