I've struggled and felt as if I wasn't going to make it at times.
It seems like the last month has been one of the hardest.
I miss my little girl.
Sometimes I struggle with downright anger, and at other times I'm just tired.
I would go crazy if it were not for the love of two individuals.
One is the love of God.
I'm thankful that God loves me.
He loved me when I wasn't living for him.
He loves me and forgives me when I sin.
Reading through the minor prophets (in the Bible), I'm amazed at how many times he longs for his people just to come back to him in repentance.
I'm thankful that God is our Heavenly Father.
I've always been impressed with the music of Lifehouse. I find their lyrics simple yet profound.
I'm reminded of the chorus of their song "Broken,"
"I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart, that's still beating, in the pain there is healing, in your name I find meaning, so I'm holdin on...I'm barely holding on to you."
I'm holding on to Him.
Second is the love of my wife. I don't know what I would do without her.
I promised to love her with all my heart and soul, and that's what I plan to do.
It's for better and for worse.
With every day together it keeps getting better.
I love you so much, Charity, and I know we are going to make it.
-Tony
4 comments:
Hi- My name is Laura and I am friends with Kellie A. I have followed your blog since before your baby girl passed, watching the room be decorated and all.. I loved it, I was heart broken the day I read the blog that she passed, I cried and prayed for you both. Just know time does heal. I have had 3 friends go thru the same thing. Also, I was a nanny for baby that passed at 2 years old. I am also a foster parent and I have a baby boy the same age as Alethia, I think about your girl when I see him do things. I pray for you guys, Know always the Lord has a BIG plan!!! I could go on and on but thank you for sharing your story:)
Such a beautiful post.
I'm praying for you both.
aww, what a sweet post. keep clinging to God and your wife, Tony. i know He's teaching you both so much through all of this and your faith and relationship is a testimony of His love. praying for you both!
thanks for sharing Tony, you both are still in my preyers. Keep holding on to the Lords love and each other for strength. He loves you both so much and will get you through this and heal your hearts.
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